A Day of Reflection

Today would have been my dad's 62nd birthday. It's hard to believe that it's almost been 10 years since he's past away.

One of my favorite memories with my dad is when he was building a closet in our barn. He was caulking up pieces of cedar paneling, and I remember sitting on a bucket and watching him work and talking with him, and occasionally helping. I can't remember what we talked about, but I can remember really enjoying the time I spent sitting on that bucket and being with my dad.

Even though I miss my dad sometimes, I can't ignore how much I have learned and how much I have grown since he passed away. I've learned that even though we lose someone, it doesn't mean that they aren't ever with us. I know that my parents are with me and watch over me. One of my favorite things to do, is to close my eyes and think about them being here with me, and I can feel them close by; heaven really isn't as far away as we think. I am so grateful for the knowledge that I have of the Plan of Happiness. It helps me see our Heavenly Father's love for us, because we can be with our loved ones again. Because I have that knowledge, I am able to move on with my life and not be consumed with sadness.

Now, I'll be the first to admit that I do have moments when I do get sad and its hard to keep going. Life is hard and it can really suck some times! It's these times that I have to rely on my Savior. He has felt the pain and sadness I have felt. He knows exactly what I'm going through, because He went through it. He suffered agonizing pain so that I wouldn't have to--so that none of us would have to. His tender love is so peaceful and does calm the troubled heart.

Although life is hard, we do have people here to help us. I am so grateful for the family and friends that I have. Each of them have helped me become the person I am today. I can turn to them for help and comfort whenever I am in need, and they are always there. I can't forget for one second though that whatever I am going through in my life, there is always someone who is going through something ten times worse. I'm so grateful that I can have empathy for these people, and help them as they overcome their struggles. I believe it was President Thomas S. Monson who once said, "You never know whose angel you will be." I have had so many angels in my life, and I am grateful for each one of them; the best way I can return the favor is by turning around and helping someone else in need.

So, on this day, I hope that I don't dwell too much on the fact that my dad isn't here, but more my life has changed and how I plan to live my life to its fullest.

Happy Birthday, Dad!